Conversations with God…Dharmie

We are gradually coming to the end of this series titled: #ConversationswithGod. It has been for us a chance to have a sincere heartfelt conversation with our Father who is both loving and merciful. All we want is sincerity in the hope that someone who reads this is inspired to change, to live right. Our prayer is that we come to an enlightenment of all that our Father has in store for us. This letter is from Dharmie and it resonates deeply as the words and questions are an echo of the ones that go through my mind. We know the Lord sees and we pray that help is close. Now dig in

Lord I need you to speak! Breathe! Whisper! Move! Just do anything.
Anything at all! Please Lord.
I’m dead serious now, I am fast losing it.
Lord I am fast losing it and I can’t help it anymore.
Everyone except you and I thinks that I am fine.
You know I’m not , right?
I don’t think it’s depression, this isn’t how they described it.
Everyone I have tried to talk to thinks I am just being emotional.
They think I am the reason for my problems.
How do I explain it?
How do I explain how overwhelming life is for me.
How do I explain the many things that runs through my mind every second.
How do I explain that’s its a solution I need to someone who doesn’t even understand that i have a problem.
I have to be saviour to all but myself.
I am fast drowning and no one is seeing me struggle to stay afloat.
I can’t fail my loved ones but I am failing myself every minute that passes by.
I am not what I thought I would be at this time.
I cannot even say if I am on the path God wants me to be.
The more I try, the deeper I sink.
Lord my anchor!!!!
No one else can understand me right now.
If you can hear me, I need help fast.
I have been doing a lot of hanging in there these days.
Send help dear Father.

See you all next week as we continue this exciting journey. Stay tuned, God bless you all and do not forget that God loves you more than you can ever imagine. Also, we will continue our new series titled: #ConversationswithGod This is us simply writing a letter to God, no flowery words, just a sincere heart talking to the father. You can send us a mail at godlywomenarising@gmail.com. This can be done anonymously or you can drop your name. We hope to hear from you.

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Conversations with God—Sylva

We are super excited to continue this series titled: #ConversationswithGod. It’s for us a chance to have a sincere heartfelt conversation with our Father who is both loving and merciful. For everyone who has asked us what they should write about, we have had one question for them: If you could see God this minute face to face sitting beside you what would you tell him, are there questions you would ask Him or it would just be thanking him for everything. We are not looking for flowery words or an English Thesis. All we want is sincerity in the hope that someone who reads this is inspired to change, to live right. Our prayer is that we come to an enlightenment of all that our Father has in store for us. This letter is from Sylva and it whispers the Father’s reassurance to my soul. It is a balm for the soul and will inspire you to be thankful. Now dig in

Late night talk with God

When I was much younger, all I wanted was the life I am living now. Perhaps, it’s a sign that I am on the right path. The evening is cold and the rain pitter-pattering against my window is getting louder. Still in the thunderstorm, I hear that voice whispering into my ears like he had in the past. He tells me to “… be still and know that I am God…” and then as those words match down my auricle to my spine, you reassure me with confirmatory words, “… for I know the thoughts I have for you, thoughts of good and not of evil to bring you an expected end…”. Those words echo through my being reminding me of who I am and whose I am, burying the boisterous thunderstorms to void. When I was much younger, I prayed to continue the communion I have with you. Perhaps, it’s a sign I am on the right path.

Let’s talk about the blessings you sent to me, shall we?
First my parents. How much I love them and as the days turned to weeks, a subtle reminder I will be a parent someday. Please bless them for me and keep them healthy. They shouldn’t come this far and not reap. Whisper to their ears how much I love them. I wish I could tell them myself, but I don’t know how to. I am not used to it, so please for me, tell them.

For Jenny, Kahlan, Kiki, David and Joe. My heart and love. What is my life without them. You sent the best siblings to me. I am even more glad that as they get older, they tend to fight less which is a good thing. But, I love them and all the uniqueness they bring. Bless them for me. Keep them and guide them to your light. Whisper my love to them.

For Helen and Victor. I can’t think of anyone that I love so much right now. Okay, am sure there are others, but these two stick. I don’t remember asking for buddies this close, but you sent them to me to hold and motivate me. I’ve drawn strength from the conversations I’ve had with them. Please bless them for me. Enlarge their coast and whisper my love and gratitude to them.

For my colleagues, Femi, Victor (lol, the other one). You know I have a truckload full of them. They are all wonderful people. Bless them too and may your blessings shower on their loving souls.

For my job and career. It gave me a purpose and a path. I pray for strength to keep up and maximize all the awesome potentials in my industry.

Let’s talk of my worries, shall we?
So of recent, I have had this unending lethargy towards a lot of things. I am not sure of the root cause, but in moments like these I just want to calm myself with those words that matched into my soul, “… for I know the thoughts that I have for you…” Crest these words on the table of my heart to keep me from falling or forgetting. I also know fear and pain is real, but so is your love and grace. Keep me through my trying times, both self-inflicted and external-caused. Teach me once again to trust in you like I should, for I no strength of my own.

Thank you for listening as always. Bless this night for me and thanks for sending the rain. Now I need to find my duvet.

Your Son,

Sylva

See you all next week as we continue this exciting journey. Stay tuned, God bless you all and do not forget that God loves you more than you can ever imagine. Also, we will continue our new series titled: #ConversationswithGod This is us simply writing a letter to God, no flowery words, just a sincere heart talking to the father. You can send us a mail at godlywomenarising@gmail.com. This can be done anonymously or you can drop your name. We hope to hear from you.

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Conversations with God—Femi

We are excited to continue this series titled: #ConversationswithGod. It’s for us a chance to have a sincere heartfelt conversation with our Father who is both loving and merciful. For everyone who has asked us what they should write about, we have had one question for them: If you could see God this minute face to face sitting beside you what would you tell him, are there questions you would ask Him or it would just be thanking him for everything. We are not looking for flowery words or an English Thesis. All we want is sincerity in the hope that someone who reads this is inspired to change, to live right. Our prayer is that we come to an enlightenment of all that our Father has in store for us. This letter is from Femi and it asks those hard questions that are often on our mind. I felt the words in my soul. Now dig in

God,

Are you there? I have stayed away for too long I am in doubt of how to find you. The numerous times I have failed you, its been you chasing after me with love. This sudden silence makes it feel like for once you have left me to be on my own. I doubt that is the case but if it is, I just want you to know I am tired. Exhausted from trying to pull me forward. These days I find myself dragging without moving. Can you hear me? I don’t even remember what it means to pray anymore. So I figured, since you see and know all, it is safer to connect to you via this platform.

Dear Lord, my heart is frail and my spirit is broken, I need you to breathe life into me again. I desire a rebirth, another redemption from the curses of the law. I have battled with self-doubt for so long that I am no longer in tune with your purpose for me. It has become tough to love myself, hence the belief others had for me faded into reality, roared at by fear of inadequacy. I have continuously sought the validation of others and left a trail of anxiety in my wake. I have subtly traded courage for cowardice just because it isn’t working. Slowly, I have drifted away from an expression of competence in the things I had passion about. Forgive me Lord, but I have to ask, is this really your plan for me? The tunnel has become longer, the only light that shines is a reflection from behind, is this the path you want me to follow?

I am finding it tough to keep faith in myself but I am trusting you this last time to push me forward. At least, shine your light in the direction you want me to follow. The ways of the present world are lined with evil, corruption, and rampant these days, suicide. These options aren’t how I desire to live or leave. A lot of others have chosen those paths, can we judge what informed their choices? Didn’t they pray to you? I have grown to learn that you do not punish, perhaps struggling is the minimum wage for our sins here on earth. Are our sins to big to be forgiven? Where exactly did we go wrong? Suddenly, almost everyone is troubled in their mind. Why are you quiet, Lord?

The world is in chaos. In the absence of pressure comes oppression, an escape from both could easily give one depression, hence seeking ways of suppressing it. Suddenly, there are more friendly enemies than true friends. More condemning tongues disguising as critics. More churchgoers than Christians, more church growers than men of God. I feel alone. I need you now than ever. I am willing to try again, riding on your strength only. I want to shut out the world and focus on you. I am prepared to trade my burden for your will. Can you hear me, Lord? This time, wherever you lead, I will follow. God, I am quiet now, speak through the silence.

Your son.

See you all next week as we continue this exciting journey. Stay tuned, God bless you all and do not forget that God loves you more than you can ever imagine. Also, we will continue our new series titled: #ConversationswithGod This is us simply writing a letter to God, no flowery words, just a sincere heart talking to the father. You can send us a mail at godlywomenarising@gmail.com. This can be done anonymously or you can drop your name. We hope to hear from you.

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Conversations with God—Tee

We are excited to continue this series titled: #ConversationswithGod. It’s for us a chance to have a sincere heartfelt conversation with our Father who is both loving and merciful. For everyone who has asked us what they should write about, we have had one question for them: If you could see God this minute face to face sitting beside you what would you tell him, are there questions you would ask Him or it would just be thanking him for everything. We are not looking for flowery words or an English Thesis. All we want is sincerity in the hope that someone who reads this is inspired to change, to live right. Our prayer is that we come to an enlightenment of all that our Father has in store for us. This letter is from Tee. The style is unusual, however there are lessons to be learnt. Now dig in.

Dear God! You scared me!

Oh I just realized how that sounds… calling on you cause you startled me

I wasn’t just expecting you.

I know we talk from time to time… I just never thought I’d see you till I die

Wait, am not dead. Am i?

Oh how excited I am to see you!

I’m currently on my period so I’m kinda cranky… I have a few messages for Eve but let me pend that for our next discussion

I’d like to make the best use of this opportunity.

I’m sorry I haven’t been in church for a while… you know this job has taken my weekends

I can’t say I am happy at the job, but I am grateful

I remember the years I stayed at home: depressed and sorrowful,

I prayed for this job, any job. Just to leave home and come back

Now I have one, a good one. Thank you

You know we talked about using this job to feed my dreams right

I have been putting efforts lately, you see them?

I am sometimes discouraged about the results

Sometimes I want to quit

After all, I have a job

Dreams can wait….or die

But no! I cant

Not after all I have put in,

Not after the future you showed me

I must keep pushing mustn’t i?

I do hope I’m making you proud…though I wish you can speed up the process

Speaking of speed.. I wouldn’t mind… I mean I would love if you can tell me when I’ll be getting married

Cause it doesn’t seem like we’re on the same page of the calendar

I know I said I wanted to stand on my feet before marriage

But I feel like my legs are aching from standing for long without support

Lol

I know, I know you know best

But It wouldn’t hurt for you to let me in on some of these plans

Yes?

Okay, I will keep waiting and trusting

Now that you’re here God I’ll like to ask a couple of things

Oh wait! I have gotten ahead of myself again

If you came down, there must be a reason you wanted to see me

But I have again made it all about me

sigh I am sorry

Dear Father, what brought you here

See you all next week as we continue this exciting journey. Stay tuned, God bless you all and do not forget that God loves you more than you can ever imagine. Also, we will continue our new series titled: #ConversationswithGod This is us simply writing a letter to God, no flowery words, just a sincere heart talking to the father. You can send us a mail at godlywomenarising@gmail.com. This can be done anonymously or you can drop your name. We hope to hear from you.

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Conversations with God—Dolapo

We are excited to continue this series titled: #ConversationswithGod. It’s for us a chance to have a sincere heartfelt conversation with our Father who is both loving and merciful. For everyone who has asked us what they should write about, we have had one question for them: If you could see God this minute face to face sitting beside you what would you tell him, are there questions you would ask Him or it would just be thanking him for everything. We are not looking for flowery words or an English Thesis. All we want is sincerity in the hope that someone who reads this is inspired to change, to live right. Our prayer is that we come to an enlightenment of all that our Father has in store for us. Our very second letter is from an amazing friend, while it is not as long as our usual articles, the humor is one that leaps at us and we pray that God sees this too. We know He does, now dig in.

Dear God,

It’s me again. Thanks for the other day, if you did not send that Angel, God(You) know I would be doomed. Anyway, I know I don’t need to write to You because You know how I feel but I just need to let it out. I know most times I may come as ungrateful but I really am grateful; I am just a glutton for being better. If I had a penny/new brain cell for everytime You got me out of serious trouble/death, I would be richer/wiser than Solomon. I guess what I am trying to say is I would be nothing without You. I have come so far and the thought of messing up sometimes scares the HELL out of me(pun intended 😁) but the thought of how much You love me calms me down. Thank You for putting me in a position where I can help out when I am needed and also, many thanks for putting me around good people.

Oh thank You for keeping my loved ones safe too. Wow! I feel better. Good talk Boss, we should do this more often. I tried calling You a while back but You weren’t picking; Adekunle said the same thing but thank You for acknowledging the missed call though. I will talk to You later.

Regards.

Oh P.S , about my better half yeah, I know You are on it and it’s not like I am rushing You but remember what we discussed? Exactly! Please take Your time because it’s the best.

Cheers.

See you all next week as we continue this exciting journey. Stay tuned, God bless you all and do not forget that God loves you more than you can ever imagine. Also, we will continue our new series titled: #ConversationswithGod This is us simply writing a letter to God, no flowery words, just a sincere heart talking to the father. You can send us a mail at godlywomenarising@gmail.com. This can be done anonymously or you can drop your name. We hope to hear from you.

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Conversations with God—Oluchi

We are excited to start this new series titled: #ConversationswithGod. It’s for us a chance to have a sincere heartfelt conversation with our Father who is both loving and merciful. For everyone who has asked us what they should write about, we have had one question for them: If you could see God this minute face to face sitting beside you what would you tell him, are there questions you would ask Him or it would just be thanking him for everything. We are not looking for flowery words or an English Thesis. All we want is sincerity in the hope that someone who reads this is inspired to change, to live right. Our prayer is that we come to an enlightenment of all that our Father has in store for us. Our very first letter is from an amazing lady and friend, while it is not as long as our usual articles, the sincerity of the thanks is one that tugs at our hearts and we pray that God sees this too. We know He does, now dig in.

Dear God,
I am grateful for all You have done for me so far, for life, family, friends and foes. I am grateful for your faithfulness despite my unfaithfulness, amd I am sorry for the many times I have doubted your love, for the times I have disappointed and moved away from you from through my numerous sins. I have come to say thank you.
Its my birthday in 3 days dear Lord, all I ask is that your will upon my life be done, that you direct my every footstep from today henceforth above all help not to miss heaven which is the greatest treasure of all times.
I hope and pray my request will be given a great consideration. Thank you lord.
Yours faithfully,
Your daughter, Oluchi

See you all next week as we continue this exciting journey. Stay tuned, God bless you all and do not forget that God loves you more than you can ever imagine. Also, we will continue our new series titled: #ConversationswithGod This is us simply writing a letter to God, no flowery words, just a sincere heart talking to the father. You can send us a mail at godlywomenarising@gmail.com. This can be done anonymously or you can drop your name. We hope to hear from you.

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God’s Will

Hello Lovely family, hope you have missed us as much as we have missed you. It’s with great joy in our hearts that we present #Godswill. What happens when this will does not align to ours. It’s a long read spiced with a story, settle in and read and we pray that the lessons to be learnt in this are learnt. Now dig in:

I don’t want this one God, that is what I want.
I don’t want to be here just take me there.
God give me this job, I am sure it will suit me better?
No way!
This can’t be happening like this,
This wasn’t how I planned it.
No this isn’t who I want to be married to.
Why am I not married yet?
God say something!
Can you hear me?
Or are you mad at me?
Should I present my desires on my knees?
Is that what you want?
God! Answer me!
I’m getting impatient waiting for the things I want.
I want them and that is all that matters!
Why do I struggle to get almost everything I desire?
Are they not pleasant and good?
Are those not the promises you made to me?
LORD!!!
Why then do I have to struggle this much Lord?
Is my will not yours?

On and on we go, not a breath lost. How can His will not be the same as mine? Are they not in line with his promises. Am I not praying as I ought to?

Stop for a minute or two and let me tell you a story as told by a friend.

My phone rings for about 6 times non-stop before I pick up, upset at the caller. I rolled my eyes as I saw it was one of my best-friends from Uni. I should have known, only Sade would call me like the Heavens were falling and I somehow had the superpowers to stop it.


“Babe let me call you later biko I am very busy” but she doesn’t let me finish before screaming in her high-pitched voice “checccccccccccck your WhatsApp!” and before I could respond the line had died. I rolled my eyes, it was so like Sade to expect you to drop everything and attend to her. I knew I was not going to rest if I didn’t check my WhatsApp and distractedly open the App to check the almighty message that needed my urgent attention. I froze at the words staring at me “I HEARD ROYAL’S MARRIAGE HAS CRASHED! APPARENTLY, HIS WIFE CAUGHT HIM CHEATING SEVERALLY AND HE EVEN INFECTED HER WITH AN STD!” what???!!! I exclaimed out loud before I realized. I smile assuredly at my colleagues who stared at me like I had lost my mind and dropped my phone. This is not my business I told myself. It’s been 6years and well, his gist can wait. But then I am extremely restless, I rush to the ladies, phone in hand, dialing Sade’s number. I barely locked the door before she picked. “my friend, my friend you too like gist” she laughs but I was not finding it funny. I cut her off, demanding the full details which she was privy since she was neighbors with Royal. Sade fills me in, and I am shocked to say the least. She goes on about how the situation was messy and the wife was bent on a divorce. She ends the conversation with “babe na God save you o”


I went back to work, and soon forgot about Royal and his marital woes. The remainder of the day passed uneventfully and soon it was time to go home. On my way home, I remember Sade’s call and the memories and revelations it brought with it.


I’m sure you have already put two and two together but let me tell you my story.
You see I met Royal whilst I was in school. 8 years ago, he was a master’s student, I was in 300 level. He was my dream man! What I used to call the perfect blend, you know handsome, tall, dark, goes to church, wonderful Christian, always involved in one Church activity or the other, Spirit-filled but also social. He was sweet, and oh girl I was in love. Boy did he make it easy! He pampered me, showered with love, attention and I never for once doubted that this was the ‘one’. He shared with me dreams of the future, our future, took me to meet his mother (I know, I know), cooked for me, and made me feel like I was the only woman in the world (yen yen) lol. He met my parents and all that was remaining was for me to graduate and serve, and the wedding would hold. Everyone called me “Olori Royal” and I would smile, raise my shoulders and walk taller. I was so happy and couldn’t wait to be his wife. Everyone kept telling me that he was a catch, handsome Royal, working in a multinational company, had everything a woman wanted but you know the whole time I wasn’t at ease and I kept having dreams of Royal stabbing me with a knife, but I was sure it was the devil trying to derail me! I mean I was the envy of girls on campus. I remember my prayers to God, to keep my relationship away from evil eyes, to keep us in love and make us stronger as a couple, I was already praying for our unborn children. Yes, I am extra like that.


2 years into the relationship, I was gearing up to get married as I was done with service. I was 23 and this was the age I had always wanted to get married, I was eager, I was anxious. 2 years down the line and I was still hearing occasional voices “He is not my will” but I was always quick to shut it down. I convinced myself it wasn’t God’s voice, and hadn’t he said in his word that whatever we ask for in prayer we shall receive? Well, there you have it! My world was perfect, a fairytale world filled with roses. Royal proposed to me on a trip to Greece, we had gone to celebrate our 2-year anniversary. It was magical and everything I had always imagined my proposal would be, surrounded by the people we loved. Our parents were ecstatic, and the planning commenced immediately. I wanted a Christmas wedding, and everything was moving on towards that direction.


The lingering doubt would not go no matter how hard or fervently I prayed but I was in love and I continued planning until things took a huge turn, and everything changed. I got the call that would change my life. Our mutual friend Adeline told me she thought Royal was cheating on me. I refused to believe her, but she said she had proof and I decided to at least listen to her so I could look her in the face and laugh and say you see Royal is as faithful as they come and finally kill my doubt. She asked me to go visit him at home unplanned and gave me the time when I was sure to catch them. I thought this was all planned by her to steal my joy, but I couldn’t stop myself from going. I didn’t know what I was going to see but I was not prepared what I saw. I caught my fiancé cheating with one of my supposed best friends and the funny thing, he wasn’t even remorseful! Apparently, he had been sleeping with her for the entire duration of our relationship…He said I got what I deserved by coming unannounced, that she gave him what he wanted, and I was just being a frigid virgin. I wanted the ground to open and swallow me, I could not believe my ears, I thought he wanted to wait, he did not pressure me, and I was so grateful to God for giving me a man like him. Little did I know that I meant nothing to him. Still I was willing to forgive, I had put so much into the relationship and was not willing to give up without a fight. Royal said he was still willing to marry me, but he was going to keep her on as a side chick and if I was not willing to accept that, then he was going to call off the wedding. I did not know what to do or say as we had less than 2 months to our wedding. I could not bring myself to accept the offer and I told him so and he ended our engagement.


I became a shell of myself, I was barely living. How could God do this to me? I had served him faithfully, I had done all I needed to do, and this one desire of my heart and he couldn’t grant it to me. I became bitter towards God and I felt that my Father didn’t love me enough. It took 2 years for me to finally move on and rekindle my relationship with God. I had accepted it as his will and let it go but now it finally made sense why I had those doubts, why the dreams never stopped even though I prayed. It was at this point that I truly understood what God did for me 6 years ago. That it was not that He didn’t answer my prayer, He did. But His answer was not what I wanted, it was what I needed. I now understand that nothing supersedes His will and that His will concerning my life is of good always.


This is a clear example of how God’s will turn out to be the best.


‘His will not mine’ is how we have been taught to pray, everything must be aligned to his will. His plans are always for good and to bring us to an expected end. You see He knows best and his will is supreme. You cannot question Him, only accept that this is his will.


How do you tell someone who has just a child she has longed and prayed for after 15 years of waiting, after 9 months of carrying the child and the labor pangs and 3 months down the line, the child dies of SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome)? How do you explain that it is God’s will? Or how do you tell someone who has prayed for a husband and finally God sends one and just on the eve of the wedding, the husband-to-be is knocked down by a car and dies on the spot. Or a promotion at work, or a job you have prayed for and worked hard to get and just at the last stage, it slips away, or someone who loses a loved one or loses a job for no reason. The scenarios abound, so how do you explain that all of these is God’s will.


How can all these bad things happen when God says his plan are for good and not for evil and to bring us to an expected end. How do you learn to trust despite all the heartache some of these experiences bring? We say the ‘Our Father’ and it has become a routine prayer and we do not at times fully understand the meaning of the words we say; “…May your will be done…” we need to not only pray for His will to be done but also we need to pray for the ability and grace to accept this will even when it is not palatable. God’s will can be perfect or permissive. There is nothing that happens without your Father’s knowledge. He either wants this to happen or He allows/ permits it to happen, either way HE knows.


Trust is a key ingredient in our walk with God, learning to have faith in him, knowing that He sees every tear, He hears every prayer, He is aware of every sigh, He knows every of our heart desires and he knows best. He does not bring us far to leave us to our own devices. It is difficult to fully trust another, to surrender your will to that of God for faith demands that from us, at times it makes no sense to us why things are the way they are or why we do not get what we want after putting in the effort, there will be pain along the path, but you have to trust God completely, you have to believe that God knows what is best for you and is going to do his very best for you and then you have to hold onto your faith as strongly as you can.


Is this going to be easy, No! But your job is to trust God and hold on to his promises as He says in Jeremiah 29:11: “I alone know the plans I have for you, plans to bring you prosperity and not disaster, plans to bring about the future you hope for.” So, when next your will does not align with God’s will or prayers do not seem to get answered, hang in there, your father loves you and knows best. Trust him!

See you all next week as we continue this exciting journey. Stay tuned, God bless you all and do not forget that God loves you more than you can ever imagine. Also, we will be starting a new series titled: #ConversationswithGod This is us simply writing a letter to God, no flowery words, just a sincere heart talking to the father. You can send us a mail at godlywomenarising@gmail.com. This can be done anonymously or you can drop your mail. We explain more on Friday.

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