We are gradually coming to the end of this series titled: #ConversationswithGod. It has been for us a chance to have a sincere heartfelt conversation with our Father who is both loving and merciful. All we want is sincerity in the hope that someone who reads this is inspired to change, to live right. Our prayer is that we come to an enlightenment of all that our Father has in store for us. This letter is from Dharmie and it resonates deeply as the words and questions are an echo of the ones that go through my mind. We know the Lord sees and we pray that help is close. Now dig in
Lord I need you to speak! Breathe! Whisper! Move! Just do anything.
Anything at all! Please Lord.
I’m dead serious now, I am fast losing it.
Lord I am fast losing it and I can’t help it anymore.
Everyone except you and I thinks that I am fine.
You know I’m not , right?
I don’t think it’s depression, this isn’t how they described it.
Everyone I have tried to talk to thinks I am just being emotional.
They think I am the reason for my problems.
How do I explain it?
How do I explain how overwhelming life is for me.
How do I explain the many things that runs through my mind every second.
How do I explain that’s its a solution I need to someone who doesn’t even understand that i have a problem.
I have to be saviour to all but myself.
I am fast drowning and no one is seeing me struggle to stay afloat.
I can’t fail my loved ones but I am failing myself every minute that passes by.
I am not what I thought I would be at this time.
I cannot even say if I am on the path God wants me to be.
The more I try, the deeper I sink.
Lord my anchor!!!!
No one else can understand me right now.
If you can hear me, I need help fast.
I have been doing a lot of hanging in there these days.
Send help dear Father.
See you all next week as we continue this exciting journey. Stay tuned, God bless you all and do not forget that God loves you more than you can ever imagine. Also, we will continue our new series titled: #ConversationswithGod This is us simply writing a letter to God, no flowery words, just a sincere heart talking to the father. You can send us a mail at firstname.lastname@example.org. This can be done anonymously or you can drop your name. We hope to hear from you.
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