I am not greedy, dishonest or an adulterer like everyone else.
I am not like this person or that person.
I fast regularly and I always pay my tithes.
I am always in the house of God.
I am this and that.
My tithes have become a bribe to God.
My everyday presence in His house a showmanship.
I listen to His word and all I can think of is this person or that other fellow should have been here. The word was meant for them not me.
I have stopped learning in the house of God; I have stopped growing.
I have missed out on the mercy of God.
I pray and all my prayers reek of self-conceit.
It’s always me, myself and I.
When I do remember others, it is to ask:
Why can’t she pray like this?
I know I can pray better than him.
Why is he behaving this way, doesn’t he know that he is a man of God?
Why is she dressed like this, isn’t she a pastor’s wife?
Why isn’t her English impeccable, I am sure I can preach better than she does.
After they will see that God called them, who hasn’t God called.
On and on I go without taking a breath, without stopping to think.
Look at that girl who commits fornication. Don’t I know her, she thinks I don’t know how many abortions she has committed, yet she is at the choir stand singing like she is a saint.
Don’t I know that boy, I knew him since he was in diapers and I knew how he was a street boy and now he comes to preach to me, what does he want to say?
My mind and thoughts roam and roam and I lose the blessings of God.
I forget that it is for the sick that Christ came, not for those who have no need of Him.
I do not remember that He searches the heart and thoughts of us all.
I have thrown away all his teachings even that of all He wants is mercy not sacrifice.
I have ostracized, condemned and made others sinners?
How can I be a sinner?
I do all that the bible teaches. So it has to be them not me.
I forget that sometimes people sin out of ignorance; that God has made all people prisoners of disobedience that He might show mercy to them all.
I am no longer grateful for God’s mercy even though I was once a sinner that had persecuted, offended and insulted God.
I have not removed the speck in my eyes but continually look for the log in other peoples’eyes.
I have thrown away the kindness and love of God our saviour that was revealed when He saved me, who was a slave to passions and pleasures of all kinds.
It was by His great mercy that He gave us new life by raising Jesus Christ from death and filling us with a living hope. No, it doesn’t come to mind.
Pride had taken root in my life and I no longer see myself as someone in need of God’s mercy.
I don’t seem to know that passage that says: “Don’t judge so that you won’t be judged.”
I have made myself Judge and jury.
I am ready to condemn everyone who I see as one deviating from the ‘true’ path.
I forget that mercy will always triumph over justice.
I am in need of God’s mercy every day and time, yet I don’t acknowledge that fact.
Until I drop that garment of self-righteousness, I will continually lose out on the inexhaustible mercy and blessings of God.
For God has come not for the righteous but for the sinner- that sinner I am.
I used ‘I’ because I also accuse myself. One way or the other we have fallen into the trap of self-righteousness.
SAY NO TO INSURGENCY AND YES TO A PEACEFUL NIGERIA. GOD BLESS YOU ALL