This is a sequel to ‘Journey with love’, so if you have not done that you should endeavour to do so. And i am sorry i didnt post a quote yesterday, I really had a lot on my plate.
Now to the post which is quite lengthy, but i guess you will forgive me for that when you are done reading. please do not forget to draw your comments and creative criticisms too. God bless you all and have a wonderful week ahead.
The world as I see it is not an easy one; the journey a tedious exercise; the roads filled with pits and falls; the way full of trials and obstacles and in spite of all these, the race must begin this very minute. I don’t know where to start from and there is no going back because when I turn back all I see is darkness and this threatens to eat me up. I have to take courage and start the race and here my story begins:
A voice said: ‘move to the starting point’. I looked around and saw a place where a mark had been made to indicate the starting point and I moved to take my position and I heard the same voice saying again: ‘now it’s time to run but remember slow and steady wins the race.’ I started running and I kept running but there was no end in sight. I got to the point where all my strength was gone and despair and doubt had begun to set in; a lot of questions crossed my mind like wasn’t I foolish to have embarked on this journey but still I could not turn back. A voice came again telling me that time wasted could not be regained and that the journey was over.
I didn’t want to waste any more time but alas the worst was yet to come. I continued running and it got to a point where I fell and didn’t have the strength to pick up myself and continue. I looked at my body and I saw wounds, cuts and bruises of varying magnitude and I asked myself if the prize was really worth the pain I was experiencing and a voice said from within: ‘no pain, no gain; no cross, no crown.’. I remembered what love told me on our last journey together that she would always be there for me only if I believed and in my pain and anguish I cried out: ‘Love, where are you; I need you now more than ever.’ Love spoke to me: “Have you forgotten all I taught you, that I am right inside your heart.” It was at that moment that all that love had thought me made meaning and I remembered that Love was in my heart and things would be alright only if I could tap into her and I said: “Love take me under your wings and lead me for I cannot go on any longer.” Love replied: “I wish I could help you but I can’t…” She still had more to say but I was in pain, anguish and torment and here she was telling me she could not help me after all her promises of being there when I needed her. I shouted at her: ‘I thought you said you would be there for me when I needed you, why do you now want to turn your back on me.’ Love answered me: “I could never leave you, am with you always but I alone cannot take you on this journey; you need someone who will lead you by the hands.”
I asked Love to show me that person so that I may ask Him to lead me by the hands. She answered me: “there is only one person who can lead you by the hands but you have to surrender totally to Him; you have to believe in HIM and have faith that HE is able to do exceedingly and abundantly above all that you can ever imagine.” I said: “Love, am in pain, who is that one person that can lead me, tell me His name that I might believe in Him.” She said: “His name is Jesus Christ; the sinless lamb, the beloved son of God, HE alone will lead you by the hands, just surrender your will to Him. Let Him use you as He desires and have absolute trust in Him that His plans for you are for good and to bring you to an expected end.” This was a very hard decision to make because whatever I decide to would have a great impact on my life and I didn’t think I was ready to surrender my will to anyone but Love spoke from within: “You cannot continue without Him.” I decided to believe in Him and I said: “Jesus, take me if you will have me; I surrender myself to You, take me under Your care. I surrender my will to You, do with me as You desire and please lead me by the hands; I cannot go on any longer.”
Then I felt a peace like never before, calm was restored and then I heard Jesus saying to me: “I can’t help you if you won’t help yourself; if you want me to lead you by the hands you will have to stand up and move towards me.” I took a bold step of faith and looked around for JESUS but I could not find Him and love said to me: “if you believe, you will always find a way.” I shouted: “Lord Jesus, I believe in You.” He spoke to me: “move forward, turn to your right I am there waiting for you.” I did as He directed and HE held me by the hands and told me that He would lead me by the hands but that I would have to completely trust and obey Him. He held my hands and led me on and we started the race again; the journey was a smooth one and I ran with Jesus and we got to the finish line together. Then he said to me: “I have to go now; there are others like you that need me.” I told Jesus not to leave me now that I had found so much joy in Him.
He said to me: “I could never leave you; you are my child. I love you with my whole heart; I have known your name ever since you were in your mother’s womb. You are the reason I came to the world, the one for whom I died on the cross; I ransomed you with my precious blood and as a mother can never forget her child so I can never forget one o my own; an IMAGO DEI. I have written my word in your hearts and I am with you even to the ends of the earth, just believe in Me and whenever you need me just talk to me as a child to her father and be rest assured that I listen and know that which you ask even before you ask and I will grant all your needs according to My riches in glory in My own time and according to the will of My Father. I, the Lord am all you need.”
Right before my eyes he disappeared and a crown was placed on my head, a prize was handed to me and a burden was lifted off my shoulders because He was where I needed him to be, right inside me.